Burying The Hatchet

So when I wrote this in my big yellow notebook (which I carry around in case inspiration strikes en route) it was basically a teen angsty rant about how much I hated a certian individual. But then I realised that a) my hate was, however well I could justify it, was useless and 2) the circumstances surrounding the drama were, in retrospect absolutely hilarious.

And so I walked out of family therapy...and I just texted her having had her "stumble upon" our school (who she had previously shunned) in Harvard Square. Basically her life is like that quote from the new Jennifer Anniston move (haven't seen the thing, only the trailer...) "my life is a study in bad choices" or something...

So I just kinda texted her and was like 'so that was fun to see you in harvard square' and she was like 'yeahhh, but I didn't get to talk to youuu' and so we kinda talked and now parents and scheduals permitting we're gonna chill at the ZombieLand march.

And along the same lines of burying the hatchet...there was this guy who I met through a friend who I really liked...and we met up at warped and he went off with his friends and toked up and I got kinda pissy about that because I don't generally hang around with pot smokers and he is a complete d-bag when he's high.

But anyways, my dad kicked me out of the car over the Allman Brothers...and so I was walking home and because it was kind of a long walk I figured I'd call someone...and so I don't know why...but I called him. And so we just kind of started talking and smoothed over the cracks of whatever it was we had. I left it kind of 'ehhh'...so it was good. Plus, I have his CD and he needs to get back ;)

So anyways, I was the idiot in both of these scenarios. I was closed minded and thought that both these people hadn't changed at all. I was adamant that I hated these people and I didn't really ever want to see them again. So please learn from my mistakes; people can change.

Its one part of the attitude that I've been trying to embrace that I hadn't really even considered. I mean, as insignificant as both of these things may sound. This really was truly eye-opening; and humbling.

In my original draft of this...I had quoted Sublime's 'What I Got' but now I'm gonna quote PATD:

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd
Little deaths in musical beds
So it seems I'm someone I've never met
You will only hear these elegant crimes
Fall on your ears from criminal dimes
They spill unfound from a pretty mouth
And everybody gets there, everybody gets there
And everybody gets their way
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her
Now I'm the only one to blame
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I want to go where everyone goes
I want to know what everyone knows
I want to go where everyone feels the same
I never said I'd leave the city
I never said I'd leave this town
A falling out we won't tiptoe about
When everybody gets there, everybody gets there
And everybody gets their way
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her
Now I'm the only one to blame
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I feel the same, and I say
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
(Well, things have changed for me
Come on every body, let's dance and sing)
I feel the same, and I say
(I'm singing it all night long
So come on everybody and join the party)
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
(Well, things have changed for me
Come on everyone, let's dance and sing)
I feel the same, and I say
(I'm singing it all night long
So come on everybody and sing along)
Things have changed for me, and that's okay
I'm on my way, and I say
Things have changed for me" -PATD, That Gren Gentleman (Things Have Changed)

That song pretty much sums up my newly adopted and 95% realised attitude. If you dont have this song...but it! I'm in love with this album...I only became a fan when they released this album...they REALLY grew up. Their other stuff was like emo stuff and it was cool...but it was more of the same.

P.s. did you hear they broke up? Yup, the guitarist and the drummer started a new band called 'The Young Veins'.